Sunday, July 01, 2007

Dont interrupt my Suicide

Hey writing click members and viewers of my blogs this is an exclusive writing. Its a about 20 pages of my pure hidden thoughts. An yes I am ok, a reminder I am a writer this is how I express my self.I am ok physically.This is where the dark shows threw in my name.

Don’t Interrupt My Suicide July 1, 2007
(Thoughts rushing out of my heart and flowing on to an edge of a blade, I feel like the edge of a razor blade.)-LOVEDARKPASSION

I have always had feelings on how I want my ending to be. When I say my ending I mean my death. I have thought about death since I was about 4. My dog Bullet died. I didn’t understand why he died or what caused it. Then I realized he wasn’t coming back. He didn’t come back because my family put him to sleep. I woke up from a dream remembering this about my dog when I was 7. I guess when you have tons of people around you dieing you get flash backs to those little things. My father died when I was almost 7, his death triggered the memory of Bullet.
The sad thing about this is Bullet was my dog; he became ill with a worm, that’s why my mom put him to sleep. She didn’t want him to suffer, neither does or did I. I miss Bullet now and I really missed him then. My father on the other hand I never missed. I felt more sad for my dog then my own father. My father I never knew. I remember my mother making me go to the funeral. I didn’t want to attend because I didn’t know him and half of the other people there. But I didn’t get a say so .I was only 7. My dad’s funeral was packed; they didn’t have a seat for me or my mother. I remember the funeral director pulling up a cold metal chair so I could sit up front, up front where the dead body was. It rained like cats and dogs that whole week, my father couldn’t be buried that day. They waited for the next day to do it, I didn’t go at all. To this day I don’t know where my father is buried and you want to know something I don’t give a damn to know. He was never around when I was younger, just my dog Bullet. You know they always say a dog is a mans best friend, but they are wrong the dog was my best friend. And I am definitely not a man.
I often wondered if my dad would have been around more if I was boy or a horse. You know the old cliché about men and there sons. So I cant help to think. He loved horses so if I was a horse would he have stuck around? Or would he still have abandoned me. My mom put Bullet to peace because he was ill, my heart is ill I want to rest. My heart is filled with raging steam against my dad. It hurts its just like having worms. Again Bullet was hurting, he is dead. I often want to be euthanized like him. Maybe when the time is right I will execute my ending on my own terms.
I want my ending to be really peaceful. This is why I am getting the steam out of my heart. I don’t love my dad like a daughter should, why? I don’t know him how can you love something you don’t know. I love God; I haven’t seen God in a physical since, but in a spiritual since. I love my mom because the bible says so. I like my dad because God would want me to. Love him I cant, I just like.

(Don’t interrupt my suicide)-Pre thoughts
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Saturday, April 14, 2007

welcome ldp zone

hey thanks for joining and viewing my blog.

Monday, April 02, 2007

forums and groups

Nightdog forum is up and so are the groups and websites.

Saturday, February 17, 2007

Mothers day

Mothers day is in a few months. I would like members or any one to post poems or thoughts about there mothers. May they be good or bad. Last day to turn them in is 2weeks before mothers day.

Love you moma

Official Forrum

My Forum is available to all viewers.
Hey, guess what I have a forum for all of us. We can go and post topics to discuss and you can meet new people.All people are welcome to sign up for it. I hope to see you there.

heres the link to it, join its for free! Click below to join Lovedarkpassion Forum

Anna Nicole Smith

Anna Nicole Smith died this month. I enjoyed her spunk she showed to us on television. I am so sorry for her and her family.I wish her lots of peace in the after life. I also wish her family my condolence for thier lost of her and her son Daniel. I would like to remeber her as that great Texas blond bomb shell who can suck all the attention in a room on her. She was a great model and a beautiful actress. I will always adore her.

To her son Daniel R.I.P

Rest In Peace

Peace is what god gives us to surrive in our life. When we see some one grieve just pray for them to have peace. When we loose some one close to us , its not such a bad thing.The good thing is ,when you go to the gates of heaven we will see familar faces we already know.

Anna Nicole R.I.P

Friday, February 09, 2007

AFI - Girls Not grey L!ve

the other link is down so here is another.

Wednesday, February 07, 2007

Conan O’Brien Defeats Serena Williams in Wii Sports Tennis

Conan beats Serena Williams in Wii Tennis proving he is the greatest late night host.

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Bloggers are pissed by the new york city law

New York wants to implement a new law that would make it against the law to cross the street while listening to MP3 players and while talking on the phone.

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Monday, February 05, 2007

Weezer -
Selena -Dreaming of you

I love this song and artist.may she rest in peace.
You're Beautiful - James Blunt

In the favorites category.
Dr.Dre f. Snoop Dog - 'The Next Episode'

I had to throw this in. I love this song.
Justin Timberlake - SexyBack

he has a sexy back for sure.
Justin Timberlake - My Love

Groove to the beat.#13 on the top count down.
Jamie Foxx feat. Ludacris - Unpredictable [Kobra]

Hey a chart topper.
Ludacris Ft. Mary J. Blige - Runaway Love

hey this video is #2 on the favorite things category. keep voting to keep it there, afi is #1.
sugar were goin down live

These guys arnt going down, there heading to the top.
Fall Out Boy - Dance Dance

Best group ever,dance ,dance....I know I will to it. Top favorites voted by the web of

A Link to a HUGE list of 80s Music Videos!

Not sure how legal this is, but this site has linked a ton of working 80s videos...

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Maroon 5 - Sunday Morning Music Video

Maroon5, they were a top 10 pick in my group last year.

Chris Sligh Has A Band

This guys audition on American Idol was great, in an attempt to find more clips of him, I came across this video of him with his band.

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Pink-Stupid Girls

PINK She was voted in the past favorites.